Hey,
So, I've been thinking a lot lately about my past. It's something that has always haunted me in the back of my mind, but recently it feels like those memories are clawing their way to the surface. And honestly? It scares the hell out of me.
The weight of regret
I've made mistakes in my life. Big ones. Ones that have cost me dearly and left scars on not just myself, but on others too. I can't help but wonder if things would be different if I had made different choices or taken a different path.
The thing is, though, dwelling on what-ifs won't change anything. It won't undo the damage or erase the pain that still lingers from those days gone by. All I can do now is face them head-on and try to make amends where possible.
A journey into darkness
But confronting your past isn't easy; trust me on this one. In fact, it's downright terrifying at times when you're forced to confront demons you thought were long buried.
When Dante first told me about our family history - about who we really are - it was like a punch to the gut. Suddenly everything made sense: why there was always this void inside of me; why I could never quite fit in no matter how hard I tried.
Embracing vulnerability
For so long, I tried to hide behind walls built with anger and sarcasm - using them as armor against any kind of emotional connection with anyone other than Kyrie (and even then sometimes). But facing up to who we really are meant opening myself up in ways that were uncomfortable for someone as guarded as Nero .
It took time (and some serious ass-kicking) for me to realize that vulnerability doesn't equal weakness; rather it takes strength beyond measure to let people see all sides of you – both good and bad – without fear or shame.
The power of forgiveness
Along this journey, I've come to understand the power of forgiveness - not just for others but also for myself. Forgiving those who have wronged me wasn't easy, especially when all I wanted was revenge or justice.
But holding onto that anger and resentment only weighed me down further; it consumed my thoughts and clouded my judgment. It took a lot of soul-searching (and some more ass-kicking) to finally let go and find peace within myself.
Moving forward
Confronting my past hasn't been easy, nor will it ever truly be over. But through the trials and tribulations, I've learned valuable lessons about who I am as a person.
I can't change what has happened in the past – no one can – but what we can do is learn from our mistakes and strive to be better moving forward. And that's exactly what I intend on doing.
Conclusion
So here's the thing: confronting your past takes courage - an unwavering determination to face even the darkest corners of your own soul. It means acknowledging your mistakes without self-condemnation while striving towards growth with every step you take.
For someone like me - someone with a short temper prone to impulsive behavior - this journey isn't always smooth sailing. There are setbacks along the way; moments where doubt creeps in or old habits rear their ugly heads again.
But at least now, armed with newfound wisdom gained from caring for those orphan kids alongside Kyrie , Nero is ready to tackle whatever demons lurk in his shadowy history head-on...even if they scare him half-to-death.