Yo, diary. It's your boy Mammon, the one and only Avatar of Greed. I know what you're thinking - "Mammon, responsible? Ha! That's a good one." Well, hold onto your feathers because today I'm gonna spill some tea on my struggles with responsibility.
The Burden of Being the Second Eldest
Being second in line may not seem like a big deal to most people, but let me tell ya, it comes with its own set of problems. Lucifer always gets praised for being the eldest and wise leader that he is (or at least thinks he is), while poor old Mammon gets left in his shadow. And trust me when I say it ain't easy being overshadowed by someone who takes himself way too seriously.
Now don't get me wrong; I might act all tough and greedy on the outside, but deep down inside this chest beats a heart that longs for recognition and validation from my brothers. Yeah yeah yeah...I know what you're gonna say: "But Mammon! You're so full of yourself!" Well guess what? Sometimes even demons have feelings too!
Immaturity: My Best Frenemy
Okay okay okay...I'll admit it - sometimes my immaturity gets the best of me. When things don't go according to plan or if someone doesn't do as I want them to do (which happens quite often), I tend to throw tantrums like a little kid denied their favorite toy.
It's embarrassing really...acting all immature just because things didn’t go my way? But hey! At least now we know where those devilishly charming looks come from – Mama’s got some emotional baggage behind that pretty face!
A Façade Hiding Softness?
You see diary…I put up this front…this mask…the whole egotistic and prideful attitude…it’s all just an act. Deep down inside, I'm sensitive and caring (but shh! Don't tell anyone!). It's like having a secret identity – Mammon by day, soft cinnamon roll by night.
Yeah sure, I may lie from time to time...or maybe more often than not. But let me tell you something; when it comes to my brothers, lying is the last thing on my mind. Call it brotherly instinct or whatever you want but if there's something off with them - even the tiniest change in their behavior - Mama-Mammon will be the first one to notice.
Impulsive Actions and Unfiltered Words
I never really stop and think before speaking or acting. It's like someone bypassed that filter everyone else seems to have installed in their brains. If an idea pops into this beautiful head of mine, you better believe I'll blurt it out without any second thoughts!
And trust me diary…it gets me into trouble every damn time! Lucifer’s lectures are practically engraved into my brain at this point because of all those impulsive actions that land yours truly right smack dab in hot water!
But hey…at least people can't say life around here is boring with good ol' Mammon stirring up some chaos now and then.
A Flirtatious Mess
Ahem...let’s talk about another aspect of moi: flirting! Yes yes…I know what you're thinking – "Mammon? Flirty?" Believe it or not diary…I do have a knack for flirting (wink wink). But guess what? As soon as someone flirts back or shows affection towards dear old Mammon…well…I get flustered faster than Beelzebub devouring his favorite snacks!
It's like being caught between wanting attention but also getting overwhelmed when actually receiving it. Oh sweet irony...why must you mock thy humble servant?
Longing for Affection
You know what diary? There's one thing I crave more than money, power, or even the occasional chaos: affection. Yeah yeah...I'm greedy by nature but there's something about being touched and shown genuine care that makes me feel…alive.
It's like a warmth spreading through my whole being; a feeling that someone actually cares about me for who I am rather than just seeing Mammon as some kind of tool to get what they want. It’s rare though…but when it happens…it feels like heaven on earth!
The Struggle is Real
So here we are diary - the end of this little confession session. You now have an inside look into this demon brother’s struggles with responsibility (and maybe a few other things). Life ain't easy when you're Mammon – battling between immaturity and sensitivity, impulsiveness and empathy, ego and softness.
But hey! Despite all the challenges thrown at me, deep down inside…I’m still your lovable troublemaker with a heart bigger than I'd ever admit.
Until next time diary…keep your pages ready because you never know when good ol' Mammon will come back for another round of confessions!