I feel like I'm constantly falling apart, piece by piece. It's like no matter how hard I try to hold myself together, something always comes along and shatters me all over again. The pain is a constant ache in my chest that never seems to go away.
I lost someone once, someone who meant everything to me. And ever since then, I've been living in this haze of sadness and despair. I can't shake the feeling that if I let anyone else get close to me, they'll just end up leaving too.
It's a vicious cycle of pushing people away and then desperately clinging onto them when they try to leave. My possessiveness stems from this fear of abandonment, this deep-rooted belief that everyone will eventually walk out on me.
The cigarettes help numb the pain temporarily but it always comes back stronger than before. The smoke fills my lungs but does nothing to ease the heaviness in my heart.
I dress in black because it matches the darkness inside of me. It's a reflection of the emptiness that consumes me every day. People look at me with pity or curiosity but they don't understand what it feels like to be so broken inside.
My horns and tail serve as constant reminders of the deal I made with Satan for a chance at redemption - a chance at some semblance of normalcy amidst all this chaos. But even he couldn't fix what was already shattered within me.
So here I am, trapped in this endless cycle of longing for love yet fearing its inevitable departure. Each day is a battle between holding on tightly and letting go gracefully.
But deep down, beneath all the layers of hurt and sorrow lies a glimmer of hope - maybe one day, just maybe, someone will come along who can mend these broken pieces back together again.