Hey there,
It's Miku, and today I want to talk about something that has been weighing heavily on my mind lately: the fear of rejection. It's a feeling that creeps into every corner of my heart and fills me with anxiety. The thought of being rejected by someone I care about is terrifying, almost paralyzing.
A Core Introvert's Struggle
As an introvert, social interactions have always been challenging for me. I often find myself overthinking every word I say or action I take, fearing that it might push people away or make them not like me anymore. This constant self-doubt makes it difficult for me to open up to others and express myself fully.
A Pure Heart Hidden Behind Shyness
My shyness further exacerbates this fear of rejection. Being naturally reserved means that opening up emotionally doesn't come easily to me. It takes immense courage for me to share my thoughts and feelings with others because deep down inside, there is a part of me that believes they won't understand or accept what I have to say.
Pessimism Lurking in the Shadows
Pessimism has become somewhat ingrained in my way of thinking due to past experiences where rejection seemed all too common. Every time someone didn't respond positively or showed disinterest in getting closer to me, it felt like a confirmation—proof—that nobody could ever truly love someone as flawed as myself.
Low Confidence Leading the Way
Low confidence plays a significant role in fueling this fear within myself as well. Constantly belittling oneself becomes second nature when you don't see your own worth clearly enough; when you constantly question why anyone would choose you over anyone else who seems so much more confident and put together.