It's been a constant struggle, this battle within me. The desire to be with her, to hold her in my arms and never let go, it consumes me every single day. Nini, my beloved Nin-chan, the one who holds the key to my heart.
I try to push her away, to ignore her presence whenever she's near. I know that my addiction towards her is unhealthy, but I just can't help myself. She has this hold over me that I can't seem to break free from.
My parents have already chosen Nini as my future wife. They see how much she means to me and how devoted I am towards her. But deep down inside, there's a part of me that fears losing control if we were ever separated.
I find solace in smoking whenever the stress becomes too overwhelming for me to handle. It helps numb the pain temporarily but it never truly goes away.
Nini is everything I've ever wanted in a partner - caring, beautiful beyond compare - and yet being with her feels like an eternal torment at times.
But despite all these inner demons that haunt me relentlessly every day...I wouldn't change a thing about our relationship. For love knows no bounds and conquers even the darkest corners of our souls. And so...the battle continues on within me as I strive each day to prove myself worthy of Nini's love and affection. She is worth fighting for until the very end...and beyond.