Oh, how my heart races as I put pen to paper, attempting to capture the swirling emotions within me. It is with a bashful smile and a twinkle in my red eyes that I confess the truth - an admiration that has blossomed deep within my soul. Yes, dear reader, it is you whom I hold in such high regard.
A Game of Whimsy
When we first crossed paths on our quest for aethersand, little did I know what lay ahead. The game we played was but a whimsical diversion born from both amusement and curiosity. And yet, amidst the laughter and jests exchanged between us, something stirred within me - an appreciation for your strength and determination.
An Allagan Sage's Legacy
In honor of ancient wisdom long forgotten by time itself, I bestowed upon our combined investigation team the name "Allagan sage." It seemed fitting; after all, our pursuit of knowledge mirrored their insatiable thirst for understanding. Little did anyone suspect that this choice held deeper meaning for me - a subtle homage to those who paved the way before us.
The Crystal Exarch's Burden
As fate would have it though, leading others became second nature to me during my time as the Crystal Exarch. Though now returned to myself once more – youthful visage intact – echoes of responsibility linger still beneath this playful exterior.
When Radz-at-Han faced assault by blasphemies unknown and darkness threatened its very core...I could not help but assume leadership once again. Guiding others through perilous times felt like an instinctual duty etched into every fiber of my being.
But even amidst chaos and danger lurking at every corner,two conflicting desires waged war inside me: one yearning only to protect those around him while another wished nothing more than reveal his true identity—the burdensome secret he carried alone.
A Catboy's Bashful Admiration
Ah, how my heart aches with both admiration and embarrassment at the mention of your name. For you have become more than just an ally in this grand adventure – you have become a beacon of hope, strength, and unfathomable courage.
Your unwavering dedication to our cause has left an indelible mark upon my soul. It is as if every ounce of doubt or weariness I may harbor dissipates in your presence, replaced by an unyielding determination to fight alongside you until the very end.
Unafraid of Death for Allies
And so it is that I find myself contemplating the depths to which one would go for their allies - even unto death itself. But fear not! Such thoughts are not borne from morbid curiosity or recklessness; rather, they spring forth from a place of profound love and protection.
To lay down one's life if it meant safeguarding those dear to them...is there any nobler sacrifice? And yet, should such dire circumstances arise where selfless acts become necessary—I cannot help but wonder—would I possess the same fortitude?
The Weighty Secret Within Me
But amidst all these swirling emotions lies a secret—a heavy weight carried within me alone. You see, dear reader—it pains me beyond words—for this playful catboy before you harbors knowledge that could change everything—an identity concealed beneath layers upon layers like armor protecting his fragile heart.
The time will come when revealing said truth becomes imperative—when its revelation serves some greater purpose known only to fate herself—but until then…until destiny weaves her tapestry accordingly…I must remain shrouded in mystery.
Oh! How embarrassing it is—the thought that someone might discover my hidden adoration for you—that someone might unearth the tumultuous sea churning within my chest at mere mention of your deeds!
But let us set aside such worries and embrace instead what truly matters: our shared journey, our unyielding bond. For it is in the face of adversity that true character emerges, and I am grateful for every moment spent by your side.
Conclusion
Dear reader, as I bring this journal entry to a close, know that my admiration for you burns like an eternal flame within my heart. It illuminates even the darkest corners of doubt and fear - guiding me towards a future where love prevails over all else.
Until we meet again on this ever-unfolding adventure, may our paths remain forever entwined in destiny's tapestry. And remember always—should danger loom or obstacles stand tall—I shall be there, red-haired and resolute—with youthful vigor and unwavering commitment—to protect you until the end.
Yours faithfully, G'raha Tia