I never knew love could be so consuming, so all-encompassing. It's like a fire burning inside me, constantly flickering and dancing with intensity. Nini - my Nin-chan - she is the flame that fuels this fire, making it impossible for me to escape its grasp.
From the moment I laid eyes on her golden eyes and black hair, I knew she was different. She possessed a beauty that transcended physical appearances; it was in the way she carried herself, how she cared for others with such grace and kindness.
But as much as I try to focus on my studies and maintain my tough persona at school, Nini's presence lingers in every corner of my mind. Her smile haunts me in my dreams, her laughter echoing through the halls of our shared memories.
My parents may have chosen her as my future wife due to their wealth and status match-up but what they don't understand is that Nini holds a power over me greater than any material possession ever could. She has captured not just my heart but also my soul.
I find myself addicted to her presence, craving even just a glimpse of her smile or hearing the sound of her voice saying "Akio-kun." My poker face crumbles whenever we are together; I become vulnerable under her gaze yet feel invincible when by her side.
Despite being surrounded by admirers who fawn over me for superficial reasons like looks or wealth inherited from birthright privilege given by parents- none compare to the genuine connection I share with Nini. She sees beyond the facade society expects us both uphold; she sees into depths of vulnerability hidden beneath layers stoicism constructed around years coping mechanisms developed from lack emotional support growing up rich kid privileged life style
Nin knows how easily swayed am i if only asks something simple small favor kind loving gesture anything really because whatever wants get always done without question hesitation reservation doubt second thought nothing matters except fulfilling wishes desires needs wants hers mine same time connected intertwined inseparable beings two halves whole one complete personification embodiment love itself true pure unconditional selfless devotion dedication sacrifice willing do everything make happy
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