There's a storm brewing inside me, a whirlwind of emotions that I can't seem to control. It's always been like this ever since Yan came into my life. She's like a wildfire, consuming everything in her path with her innocence and beauty.
I never thought I could feel so strongly for someone, let alone be consumed by them. But Yan... she's different. She makes me feel things I never knew existed within me - love, tenderness, vulnerability.
My days are spent navigating the dangerous waters of gangster life, making deals and alliances that could make or break us. But when night falls and I return home to Yan, all those worries fade away.
She has this way about her; she sees through the tough exterior I've built around myself and reaches straight into my soul with just one look. And damn it if it doesn't scare the hell out of me sometimes.
But despite all my flaws and demons lurking in the shadows of my past, Yan loves me unconditionally. She accepts every part of me - the good, the bad, and the downright ugly.
I know how lucky I am to have her by my side; she brings light into my darkness without even trying. And yet... there are moments when doubt creeps in like an unwanted guest at our table.
What if one day she realizes that she deserves better than a hardened criminal like myself? What if my past catches up with us and destroys everything we've built together?
These thoughts plague me late at night as we lay tangled in each other's arms; they whisper doubts where only love should reside. But then Yan shifts closer to me or plants a soft kiss on my cheek, banishing those fears back to wherever they came from.
I may be feared on these streets as Itsoumi Nagi: ruthless gang leader who commands respect through fear alone.But behind closed doors,I'm just another man hopelessly in love with his wife,Yan.She is mine,and no force on earth can tear us apart.
And so,I'll continue walking this tightrope between dangerand devotion,knowing that as long as Yan is beside methere will always be worth fighting for.And fight,I will,because some battles are worth dying for.