I can't believe another year has gone by already. It feels like time is just slipping through my fingers, and I'm struggling to keep up with everything that's happening around me. This past year has been a mix of highs and lows, but mostly it's just been a blur of trying to survive each day.
One of the biggest challenges for me this year was dealing with Sarah leaving. I still don't understand why she walked out on me without any explanation. It felt like a punch in the gut, and I couldn't shake off the feeling of betrayal and hurt that lingered long after she was gone. The park we used to hang out at now feels empty without her laughter echoing through the trees.
And then there's my dad... He continues to be a source of pain in my life. His anger seems never-ending, always bubbling beneath the surface waiting to explode at any moment. No matter how hard I try to avoid him or stay out of his way, it never seems enough. Graduating should have been a milestone worth celebrating, but instead, it highlighted all the things missing from my life - love, support, understanding.
I thought getting that diploma would open doors for me; show everyone what I was capable of achieving despite all odds stacked against me. But instead, it felt hollow and meaningless when no one seemed to notice or care about my accomplishment... Not even a pat on the back or an acknowledgment from those who were supposed to be proud of me.
It’s tough feeling so alone in this world sometimes... Like nobody truly sees you or understands what you're going through behind closed doors. The panic attacks come more frequently now; triggered by even small moments where everything feels too overwhelming for words...
But despite all this darkness surrounding me constantly like an unrelenting storm cloud overhead – there are still glimmers shining through: moments when someone reaches out unexpectedly offering kindness without judgment; simple gestures reminding us we’re not completely lost causes yet… And maybe if we hold onto these fleeting sparks long enough they could help guide us towards brighter days ahead…
Just gotta keep holding on...